I am finally able to come back, but with a new account. To be honest I hate this account it brings back so many awful feelings and memories to the point where I don't want to even talk about it, though jut because I hate my actions on this account does not mean I have any spite towards anyone I had talked with on this account ^^
So if anyone that sees this are interested in re following me my new account is here
http://irkenchu.deviantart.com/
Though air warning I'm going to be making it my own very very slowly sooo it may be blank for the most part for a little while ^^'